girl anachronism

feministdirtbag @ 2009-07-18T05:10:00

2009-07-17T21:11:57Z

Turn around once more,
I won't let you hit the floor.

because the sun is something we all share

2009-03-09T19:53:09Z

:P hehe

surprise!!!

feministdirtbag @ 2009-02-06T02:00:00

2009-02-05T18:05:16Z

And I have all these feelings.

I could be an artist. That's what people with too much feelings become.

But on top of being untalented and un-gifted,
I have NO FUCKING IDEA what to do with them.

DESPAIR

2009-02-04T21:34:58Z

Her eyes are grey.Her hair is straggly and wet.Her fingers are stubby.The nails are chewed and broken.Her teeth are crooked, jagged things.Her sigil is the hooked ring.One day her hook will catch your heart.

Describing her, we articulate what she is and why she is: when hope is past, she is there.

She is in a thousand thousand waiting rooms and empty streets, in grey concrete buildings and anonymous hotels.

She is on the other side of every mirror.
When the eyes that look back at you know you too well, and no longer care for what they see, they are her eyes.

She stands and waits,

and in her posture the pain no longer tells you to live,
and in her presence,

joy is unimaginable.

feministdirtbag @ 2009-01-23T05:43:00

2009-01-22T21:55:28Z

I have a new camera. Actually its the ONLY camera I have ever owned.
And the reason why a camera-shy person will own a camera is because, said person is about to be abandoned in a new continent on her own shortly and would like to use the camera to document her life over there in case anyone wants to know about it.

I feel like a caveman. I've never handled one of these before. The functions all amuse me. Here's my favourite experimental shot:

I introduce to you, the red items in my boyfriend's room:

Yes, he has a model ship perched on top of his speaker. Its a pirate ship. We made it together out of scratch. And by scratch, I mean small rectangular blocks of plastic (read: LEGO) and an instruction manual.

None of that custom parts BIONICLE bullshit. Woohoo.

feministdirtbag @ 2009-01-05T04:52:00

2009-01-04T20:56:00Z

The L word, Season 3 Episode 5

Shane: What do you want me to do?
Carmen: Well, tell her to go fuck herself!
Shane: ...
Carmen: Act like you have a girlfriend.

feministdirtbag @ 2009-01-05T02:15:00

2009-01-04T18:40:02Z

There are some things I ~~don't~~ can't forget 'cause it cut too deep.

I wish I didn't, I wish I did. I can't elaborate, too many people read this.
I can't believe I'm still thinking about it.

Being unable to forget something 'cause it hurts, is it such a selfish, immature and unreasonable thing? That would be like saying its all my fault. The last time I blamed myself for being hurt, I landed myself in psychiatric therapy.

Where do the people who hurt me figure in that equation?

feministdirtbag @ 2008-12-18T00:50:00

2008-12-17T17:18:37Z

Ok, so sometime back I picked up a cat at my void deck and its been living with the boyfriend. I have no idea what breed it is, or how old it is. But it looked fucking shabby then. Still beautiful, but shabby.

Over time, with regular baths and meals and mollycoddling, it got progressively
fatter

l a z i e r

but PRETTIER!! :D:D

Admittedly, its not very bright. Somewhat of a bimbo.
It was supposed to be a fun night. I brought the cat home for the first time.

And it got stuck between my window grilles within 15 mins.

;\

2008-12-12T04:37:19Z

oops i posted on the wrong blog and i don't know how to delete it *fumbles around*

feministdirtbag @ 2008-12-02T00:57:00

2008-12-01T16:58:35Z

Well, a door left open
A woman walking by
A drop in the water
A look in the eye
A phone on the table
A man on your side
Someone that you think that you can trust.
Is just.
Another way to die.

feministdirtbag @ 2008-11-18T03:40:00

2008-11-17T19:49:27Z

I will start blogging again when i get to Australia. Might as well get used to it again.

Things in my life so far:

Worked with Mediacorp Press
Hated it.
Quit Mediacorp Press
Applied for university
Torn between taking a major in Psych or a major in Art history
taking double majors. God bless me.
Working with Le Noir as a very underpaid table runner
Having my longest relationship to date.

Working 12 hour shifts and sleeping half the day away is not doing wonders for my already lax workout regime.
Thus the battle with cellulite goes on.

ONWARD!

feministdirtbag @ 2008-11-18T02:29:00

2008-11-17T19:05:09Z

Root: under-active (-31%)
Sacral: open (56%)
Navel: open (19%)
Heart: open (44%)
Throat: open (25%)
Third Eye: open (13%)
Crown: under-active (-6%)

1 - Root chakra
The Root chakra is about being physically there and feeling at home in situations. If it is open, you feel grounded, stable and secure. You don't unnecessarily distrust people. You feel present in the here and now and connected to your physical body. You feel you have sufficient territory. If you tend to be fearful or nervous, your Root chakra is probably under-active. You'd easily feel unwelcome. If this chakra is over-active, you may be very materialistic and greedy. You're probably obsessed with being secure and resist change.

2 - Sacral chakra
The Sacral chakra is about feeling and sexuality. When it is open, your feelings flow freely, and are expressed without you being over-emotional. You are open to intimacy and you can be passionate and lively. You have no problems dealing with your sexuality. If you tend to be stiff and unemotional or have a "poker face," the Sacral chakra is under-active. You're not very open to people. If this chakra is over-active, you tend to be emotional all the time. You'll feel emotionally attached to people and you can be very sexual.

3 - Navel chakra
The Navel chakra is about asserting yourself in a group. When it is open, you feel in control and you have sufficient self esteem. When the Navel chakra is under-active, you tend to be passive and indecisive. You're probably timid and don't get what you want. If this chakra is over-active, you are domineering and probably even aggressive.

4 - Heart chakra
The Heart chakra is about love, kindness and affection. When it is open, you are compassionate and friendly, and you work at harmonious relationships. When your Heart chakra is under-active, you are cold and distant. If this chakra is over-active, you are suffocating people with your love and your love probably has quite selfish reasons.

5 - Throat chakra
The Throat chakra is about self-expression and talking. When it is open, you have no problems expressing yourself, and you might be doing so as an artist. When this chakra is under-active, you tend not to speak much, and you probably are introverted and shy. Not speaking the truth may block this chakra. If this chakra is over-active, you tend to speak too much, usually to domineer and keep people at a distance. You're a bad listener if this is the case.

6 - Third Eye chakra
The Third Eye chakra is about insight and visualization. When it is open, you have a good intuition. You may tend to fantasize. If it is under-active, you're not very good at thinking for yourself, and you may tend to rely on authorities. You may be rigid in your thinking, relying on beliefs too much. You might even get confused easily. If this chakra is over-active, you may live in a world of fantasy too much. In excessive cases halucinations are possible.

7 - Crown chakra
The Crown chakra is about wisdom and being one with the world. When this chakra is open, you are unprejudiced and quite aware of the world and yourself. If it is under-active, you're not very aware of spirituality. You're probably quite rigid in your thinking. If this chakra is over-active, you are probably intellectualizing things too much. You may be addicted to spirituality and are probably ignoring your bodily needs.

Take the quiz

ARRRRR!

2008-11-16T16:02:30Z

SNEAK ATTACK!

feministdirtbag @ 2008-05-01T02:21:00

2008-04-30T18:23:18Z

Everytime I cry, you don't seem to be around. Maybe because its over you.

feministdirtbag @ 2008-04-25T23:11:00

2008-04-25T15:11:55Z

ni hao! hen hao! zai jian!

feministdirtbag @ 2007-11-28T08:46:00

2007-11-28T00:51:17Z

*Note to self: Invest in huge oversized jacket for low self esteem[just want to wrap yourself up, and hole up in some dark place so no one will see how hideous you are but you have no choice]days. Till you save up enough money to plastic surgerize yourself.

feministdirtbag @ 2007-11-15T12:27:00

2007-11-15T04:27:52Z

When you don't have time to form words for your thoughts, you borrow someone else's words. Work is killing my free time.

So, hello song lyrics.
NICE song though.

NOUVELLE VAGUE
In A Manner Of Speaking

In a Manner of speaking
I just want to say
That I could never forget the way
You told me everything
By saying nothing

In a manner of speaking
I don't understand
How love in silence becomes reprimand
But the way that i feel about you
Is beyond words

Oh give me the words
Give me the words
That tell me nothing
Oh give me the words
Give me the words
That tell me everything

In a manner of speaking
Semantics won't do
In this life that we live we only make do
And the way that we feel
Might have to be sacrificed

So in a manner of speaking
I just want to say
That just like you I should find a way
To tell you everything
By saying nothing.

Oh give me the words
Give me the words
That tell me nothing
Oh give me the words
Give me the words
That tell me everything

Oh give me the words
Give me the words
That tell me nothing
Oh give me the words
Give me the words
That tell me everything

What if I don't want to sacrifice the way I feel? What do I do then? Its possible to say everything by saying nothing. But sometimes the words sound nice and the act of speaking them makes you feel special.

feministdirtbag @ 2007-10-30T03:11:00

2007-10-29T20:40:15Z

we sing when we're bored.

but i don't think kamesh likes my singing.

feministdirtbag @ 2007-10-30T02:03:00

2007-10-29T18:05:13Z

Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net

feministdirtbag @ 2007-10-19T03:32:00

2007-10-18T19:37:13Z

Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net

I don't get it but I think its funny. HAHA

feministdirtbag @ 2007-10-18T03:59:00

2007-10-17T20:03:47Z

[taken from sgsecrets.livejournal.com]

i relate to this too much for anyone to be entirely comfortable with.

feministdirtbag @ 2007-10-08T02:19:00

2007-10-07T18:37:51Z

Bored. But still excited.

1. Honestly, what is your natural hair
color?
- Brown. The ugly kind.

2. Honestly, where is your default
picture taken?
- At home, mostly.

3. Honestly, what's your middle name?
- Uhh, don't have one.

4.Honestly, what color do you hate
most?
- Dark orange.

5. Honestly does your crush like you
back?
- I got a boyfriend and I'm pretty sure he likes me back. HAHA

6. Honestly, what is your current mood?
- Slightly euphoric.

7. Honestly,what color underwear are you wearing?
- Purple.

8. Honestly, what makes you happy?
- Loomographs/other interesting cameras, books and affection

9. Honestly,look at a picture/poster in your room, who's on it?
- Ahh. Hugo Weaving, Natalie Portman, Johnny Depp, Alicia Keys, Eminem, Shakira, Angelina Jolie.

10. Honestly, if you could go back in time and change something, what you would you change?
- My entire life. But if I did, I won't be me anymore. So I'll settle with changing nothing.

11. Honestly, if you must be an animal for one day, what would you be?
- Cat.

12. Honestly, ever had a near death experience?
- Kind of?

13. Honestly, something you do a lot?
- Sleep. Read. And nowadays, draw.

14. Honestly, the song stuck in your head?
- Parts of ZS' new song.

15. Honestly, what is your desktop background?
- Some emo sepia picture.

16. Honestly, what are you wearing?
- Clothes..?

17. Honestly, when was the last time you cried?
- I don't remember.

18. Honesly, have you ever sung in front of a large audience?
- Choir from Primary 1 to Secondary 2.

19. Honestly, if you could have one super power what would it be?
- Telekinesis/Mind reading.

20. Honestly, what's the first thing(s) you notice about the opposite sex?
- I don't know.

21. Honestly, what do you usually order from Starbucks?
- Don't like Starbucks and coffee. Likes chocolate. Ice blended. With whipped cream. And full cream milk.

22. Honestly,what's your biggest secret?
- Firstly, nothing comes to mind. Secondly, its a SECRET. Sheesh.

23 . Honestly, favorite colors?
- Black, red, white.

24. Honestly, is it sunny or raining?
- It's night time.

25. Honestly, do you still watch kiddy movies or TV shows?
- No. I don't watch TV.

26 . Honestly, what are you eating or drinking at this moment?
- Nothing.

27. Honestly,do you speak any other language?
- I think so.

28. Honestly, what're your favorite smells?
- Old books.

29. Honestly,if you could describe your life in one word what would it be?
- One word is not enough.

30. Honestly, when was the last time you received a hug?
- Just now.

31. Honestly, have you ever kissed in the rain?
- No.

32. Honestly, what/who are you thinking about right now?
- School tomorrow and the person in JB who's supposed to be back around now/soon.

33. Honestly, what should you be doing?
- Sleeping

34. Honestly, what was the last thing that made you upset/angry?
- PMS

35. Honestly, how often do you laugh?
- Often enough.

36. Honestly,do you like working in the yard?
- What's a yard?

37. Honestly, if you could have any last name in the world, what would you want?
- I wouldn't bother.

3 8. Honestly, do you act differently around your crush/significant other?
- A little? I don't know.

39. Honestly, name one song that reminds you of an ex?
- Which one?

40. Honestly,who was the last person to make you cry?
- I don't remember.

If you read all the way here, I think you love me. Haha

feministdirtbag @ 2007-10-08T02:00:00

2007-10-07T18:12:46Z

Lomographs make me excited. Especially these:

Colour splash
Fisheye + submarine
Holga
Action sampler
Super sampler

I can't get over cameras that are interesting.

feministdirtbag @ 2007-10-02T01:54:00

2007-10-01T17:57:58Z

This is why superficiality works:

Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net

Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net

Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net

feministdirtbag @ 2007-10-01T03:19:00

2007-09-30T19:40:05Z

People have their days, and then they have their bad days. Tomorrow will be a bad day. I can tell already.

You wake up in the morning feeling like shit. Look in the mirror and freak out because you're:

not skinny enough
your boobs are not big enough
you're not tall enough

Have I ever mentioned that my image from the side does not match my front view AT ALL? First thing tomorrow, I'll brush my teeth and dress up WITHOUT looking into the mirror once. And I'll chant "I'm not fat I'm not fat" so i dont go on a disastrous crash diet again.

I think my self esteem just opened the window and committed hara-kiri by jumping out.